Nobody’s Perfect, But I’m Perfect for Me
Everyone out there sits and judges people based on how they look, how they dress, how they act, or even just how they breathe. Some might say that a person is perfect whereas they don’t even know what that person is going through. There is a saying out there “Don’t just a book by its cover” which applies perfectly in this life.
Seriously, don’t just a person by how they appear. I may sit there with you laughing, having the time of my life but deep down inside I may be crumbling and falling apart. The main aim to this post is that I have always put myself down, and I think in a way I still put myself down. A million and one thoughts go through my head everyday and each and every one of them is worse than the other.
Before I got braces I would berate myself on how I looked, I am no super model but I am not an evil witch as well. I immediately deemed myself unworthy of people’s love and respect simply because I have gained a lot of weight, had “british” teeth, had a crooked nose, and so much more. Yes I saw all of these faults in myself, and I kept telling myself that I was unworthy.
It didn’t stop with how I looked like, I went on to sabotage how I thought. Although statistically I knew that I was a smart individual, I kept on thinking that I was dumb. I can’t do something then that must mean I am stupid. It’s just a method of thinking. In short, I was bullying myself. The result of this bullying remains to be seen but imagine if this was someone else bullying me.
Thankfully I am a strong person that I can still differentiate between what is wrong or right. Had I been weaker I might have done something to harm myself, to harm my health. I am not saying that I never stumbled upon that thought, I actually did more than once at different points in my life. But imagine those kids out there in different schools, where some older kid or even a person their age starts to tease them about how they look like or how they act. There is a high number of bullying happening all around the world and the result of this bullying pushes these younger children to do something to silence that sound. The sound of a bully.
I have read and will continue to read about numerous deaths happening between younger children simply because they were bullied by a parent, a classmate, a friend, an enemy, anyone really. Right now bullying can take place from a school’s playground to an online social media website. It’s not fair really. One should stop the bullying to themselves and stop other people from bullying them.
I still don’t see myself as a perfect individual, I don’t have the perfect body, nor do I have the perfect face, nor even the perfect mind. But at least I know that I am a good person deep down inside. I help others, I treat people kindly to the extent that some abuse it, and well simply said I live. My advice to everyone out there who goes through what I go through everyday, the bullying you put yourself through that there is a light on the other side of the tunnel, and when you think that “no one is going to miss me if I suddenly disappear from the world” it’s not true because you might not know it but there might be one person in between a billion who will notice that you are gone and who will be devastated.
The path to self loving is quite long and treacherous but worth it in the end.
P.S. To that one person who I know will be reading this and agreeing to each and every word, I hear you friend and I know that you might not show it outside but you too suffer from what I go through. I am here if you need a person to lean on and I know you are there.
About the author
I am a Kuwaiti Apple and gadget girl freak, who gets bored of her blog layouts so much that I change them like I crazy. Currently I work in a newspaper and if you don't see me around I'm being sucked into my job reviewing TV Shows and APPS! This is my space where I vent and release everything, welcome to it.