Gosh Darn-it I Miss Writing!

July 7, 2014  |  My Life, Random

Seriously Gosh Darn-it! I so miss writing, I was just looking through some of my older posts back when I was completely oblivious to how he world works and I kind of loved reading my trail of thoughts.  Who knew that keeping a blog not only allows you to connect with people but to revisit your past and just cherish it a bit more! Back in 2008 around this time I had just arrived with my Dad (pre-heart surgery) and was going through a different kind of adventure, not the great kind but one where you know how tough you are from the experiences you go through.  I also remember back in 2008 the iPhone 3G came out and I stood in line for it just to SEE IT! I couldn’t even buy it back then LOL! The adventures I had to get that iPhone 3G were insanely awesome and interesting really.  But enough about the past.

Have you missed me? I know very few of you still read this dusty little blog but I kind of hope that many of you still do check back from time to time.  I’ve been more active on Instagram than on this blog simply because I’m just too bloody damn lazy! I will not promise my usual promise (the one where I say I will promise to write more) simply because I haven’t been doing that these past few months but I guess I can promise to come back every so often and share my thoughts and things I’ve gone through.

I recently had experienced a couple of “firsts” but more on that in the next post which should be very very very soon.  To tell you the truth I write a gazillion posts in my head right before bedtime, then I sleep and forget them all and wake up with nothing on my mind LOL! I should copy Louis Litt from “Suits” for those of you who don’t know him, he’s a character on that show and he’s simply awesome he has that Recording Device to record his thoughts and daily events hehe and later on he listens to himself, that’s insanely awesome!

So what have I missed in the world?  Who can’t wait for the release of the latest iPhone, the iPhone 6 and iPhone Air.  Rumors point to it being available between September 19 – 25 hehe and I kind of believe them based on history :P

Beyond Penniless

May 19, 2014  |  My Life, Sad

One of the most interesting things is how this universe works, its so weird sometimes that you never know when you are given a chance to do something it in fact is in your best interest.  Being unemployed for the better part of the year had me exhausting my savings fund to a point where I am now in debt to others.  I am so in debt that I just cannot feel happy about receiving my new paycheck because I know I have to replenish everything I have exhausted (and that means putting a hold on enjoying and spending money on things I might love or want).  I know it takes time for things to get back on track and nothing happens overnight but that doesn’t stop me from going to bed wishing to wake up in the morning and find out that I have won a lovely amount of cash to put me out of debt and restart my savings.

Are you a saver? Or do you live from paycheck to paycheck? I personally try to save at least 30-40% of my salary for that rainy day.  Sometimes I would save a lovely amount and then blow it off on a trip to NYC, other times I would just keep on saving to either purchase a car I wanted or just to have that little nest for when I wish to not depend completely on my salary.

If you do save, do you find yourself digging into that fund during the month and using some of the amounts you have saved?  I sometimes find myself in trouble and have to dig in (i.e. When you take your car in for service and find out you have to pay an arm and a leg to have some parts changed :P)

The Government Way of Work Life

May 4, 2014  |  My Life, Rants, Work

So the day is finally here, today on the #StarWarsHoliday #MayTheFourth I began my first day of work in the government sector. After spending almost 6 years in the private sector this is kind of a downgrade if only because of the incomprehensible way of doing things. The journey to finish my papers and start was not that long but not that short as well.

First step was to come to work by 8:00 AM (I arrived at 7:29 AM and decided to have breakfast at the coffee shop down below). When it was 8:00 AM I went upstairs to the Human Resources Department where I found out that the employees who were to process our papers weren’t there yet and they didn’t show up until 8:15 AM.

I filled out my papers and was asked to take a document to the department where I would be starting and get it signed from my manager.

Second Step was to sign my papers and take them back to the HR Department. I completed that step in less than 5 minutes hehe they were shocked by how fast it took me to go between floors and such.

Third Step was to go to the other HR floor and get the original copy of my Work Declaration (not sure if that is what it is called by it is basically a Work Contract). The ladies who would give me that paper weren’t there, they told me she might arrive at 11-ish.

Fourth Step was to go back to the floor where I would start and have them add my fingerprint to the attendance system. That lady wasn’t there yet therefore I was asked to wait.

Instead of waiting and wasting more time I took the chance to go to the Man Power Government Program to remove my name from the Unemployed list so as not to get in trouble. I finished and came back at 11:00 AM and was able to find everyone I needed to see to complete Steps 3 and 4.

After selecting the desk where I was to sit, I waited for the IT guys to give me my username and password and it has yet to be done but all in all I have half an hour left of the work day and then I off to home.

Did I do anything useful today? Absolutely not! I just woke up early and spent the day walking around getting papers done only to end up not even knowing what I am supposed to do here.

All in all, this is going to be an interesting journey. I wonder what is in store for me :P

P.S. At least I can now post on my blog when I am insanely bored and have nothing to do which might be quite often.

The Impending Demise of Unemployment

April 28, 2014  |  My Life, Reflections

So I got that call I’ve been waiting for (not really waiting for per say) to state that I am all set and ready to start my new government job.  I know what you are all probably thinking, Jacqui + Government Job = DISASTER! But I’ve been out of a job for a full year now and the Private Sector has become a mess really when trying to get a job there.  Most jobs available require either a fresh graduate or someone with an insane amount of experience.  And once you interview, you might be awesome but lack an extra degree or so (i.e. Masters in something or another) and most jobs want that.  A Bachelors can only get you so far.  Don’t get me started on a Bachelors in English Literature and where it can take you.

Luckily for me, I have avoided the teaching route (unlike my other friends Swera and Swair [I'm not sure if its even a coincidence that they're both English Teachers and both named Sarah!] they are stuck with that!).  Some might love teaching brats their grammar, spelling, and sentence structure but I for one can’t be patient enough to handle them.  It should be written in our course books that those of you who major in English Literature either turn out to be teachers, or work in something completely oblivious to your educational degree (which is what I ended up doing when I was at the Bank) and thus majoring in English is not always as glamorous as one might think.  I still though don’t semi-regret it :P  Anywho, I seem to have found (or rather the job found me) a job working in one of the most hated Ministries ever, not sharing which but its sister is the Ministry of Education and hopefully this will be a start to something good (one hopes!).

Pay in the government sector is a major decrease (in some cases) from the Private sector but the good thing about this job is that the working hours are doable.  8:00 – 1:30/1:45 is a blessing in comparison to previous jobs where it was 8:00 – 4:00 or some days 7:30 – 1:30 and 5:00 – 8:00 (Branch days).  I might at least enjoy the sun with a minimal work schedule which allows me time to be a human being.

I’m not insanely excited that I’ll be going back to the work force, simply because I am not a morning person.  But at the same time I need to go back, I have officially depleted my savings COMPLETELY and I am basically borrowing money from the parents to survive and support my lavish gadget lifestyle (read: taking money without returning it, I’m their favorite child, so it’s okay!).

Maybe with the new job, I will have material to share and thoughts to unravel in this little page of wonders.

 

*Ugh I can’t even think about waking up early!*

The Loss of Time & e=MC2 (Just Kidding)

April 8, 2014  |  My Life, Random

It seems the older we get the faster time flies by, I remember when I was a kid (not that it was too long ago, I was a kid just yesterday actually hehe just kidding) anyways when we were kids we would think time is standing still and we can’t wait to grow up and not have to answer to our parents or do homework and the whole shebang.  Little did our younger selves know that the minute you start to grow up responsibilities start to pile on and you just feel so swamped and at a loss for said time.

I have now been out of a job for a full year and some change and you would think I could have used that time wisely and reorganized my room (it has become an official hoarder’s mess compound there) or finished those blog designs I promised some friends (yes you know who you are hehe) or even attempted to do anything useful but all I remember spending my time on is eating, sleeping, watching some TV shows, and just lazying around.  I have even lost the will to write in a way, I think the lack of being able to express my personal feelings has something to do with that.  My promise to myself really and not to this blog is to be more of myself.  I want to share a post a day just being my raw un-filtered self (not that I can be 100% unfiltered, damn not being completely anonymous anymore!).

Starting with this year I have attempted to join a gym and I am actually attending, this month not as much as last but really I am getting there.  I haven’t lost any weight officially yet (damn those holiday turkeys they really are insanely delicious but spend forever on your hips!) but I am sort of on the right path.  I have quit (or tried to) fizzy drinks and replaced that with water but it is not a 100% abstinence, I do have the occasional Coke or Pepsi with a burger now and then but I am trying to increase my water intake from just one 330ml bottle to drinking at least 6-8 of them a day.  It feels different really when I take water with a meal instead of the fizzy drinks because I just feel a tad bit lighter.

Taking care of my health will be a priority this year, I should just stop taking things for granted because really Father Time can do only so much and eventually everything catches up with you.  I seriously have no idea what I want to say right now or how I drifted this far from the main topic but that’s what it means to live in my head.

A thousand voices fighting to be heard.

P.S. If I am required to add a photo every time I want to just be me, I will lose interest and leave.  I miss my old way of posting where it was just me and the keyboard against all of you.  I can go on and on about anything and nothing really but when you ask me to edit photos and choose which one that goes I just slack off.

I’m Still Alive

April 7, 2014  |  My Life, Random, Rants

I’m still alive and around, I know I pretty much haven’t been updating as often as I should and I deserve a real kick in the bum but I promise (yes this time I will keep it) [no really I will keep it] to write more if only a few lines to get the voices out of my head.

Yes although I am somewhat sane, I tend to have voices talking to me in my head sometimes and they just can’t stop. Life as an unemployed individual is really not always that fun, especially since you can’t travel on your own funds and waste the time on a never-ending vacation. I have pretty much depleted all of my savings and funds and am beyond literally broke!

Things might be “somewhat” looking up as I am in the final process of finalizing my papers for a Government job. Yes the Private sector has deemed me not “fresh” enough or not “experienced” enough to hire and thus the dilemma of walking in either too qualified or not qualified enough has haunted me. Not to mention how they want an MBA simply because they just do. I mean, it’s good that I even graduated university and didn’t drop out like my idol Steven Paul Jobs! *Just Kidding* (seriously I’m kidding)! Oh wow, how I missed this sort of babbling on endlessly (hopefully not since this post has to end) and just writing out what those voices in my head say. I have silenced them for so long.

Damn, I have missed you blog, seriously missed you! I now understand why I feel so lonely some days! I have tried to replace my blog with Instagram (@Jacqui) or reading books and watching TV shows and that just doesn’t help me vent out.

I will now vent once a day! :P Watch out! To those of you who are still around, *waves hello!*

The Tragedy of Forgetfulness and Something Else

December 7, 2013  |  Deep Thoughts, My Life, Random

Have you ever grabbed a piece of paper and a pen and was about to write something that was on your mind and the moment you put the pen on the paper it flies out of your head? Or have you ever opened a new tab in your browser and wanted to type a URL link and just stared blankly at the screen not being able to remember a thing about what you wanted to do?

No? Really, double check think about it again.

That just happened to me, two bouts of forgetfulness took place and it freaked me out.  I think I’ll blame the fact that I was watching a TV Show while attempting to multi-task and for some reason the thoughts just flew out of my head but it can also mean that I’m ancient now.  My memory has been bad lately and I don’t know what to do to improve it.  I can’t remember things anymore whereas before I used to be able to remember everything and anything.  Now I need to remember what I wanted to write on that piece of paper and what I wanted to search for :/ It’s going to bug me until I figure it out.

Share with me your experiences, if you had any hehe.

 

UPDATE: I just remembered I wanted to double check my phone bill that’s the URL I wanted to visit LOL! Oh thank God I won’t be losing sleep on that :P