Have you ever experienced a writer’s block so bad that it hits everything, every aspect whether it is writing, creating images, anything that requires creativity feels as if it has been sucked out. Wait I think I have “Creative’s Block”. I feel as if I can’t do anything or when I start a project I lose interest mid-way and just want to go back to being a couch potato.
What have I been doing these past few weeks? Well I have a post ready for publishing but I’ve been too uninspired to prepare the graphics for it. So instead I’ve just been binge-watching “Charmed” even though I’ve already seen it probably ten-thousand times! It’s my favorite supernatural show!
Maybe, just maybe Stella will get her groove back. Here is hoping. Just stay tuned, I’ve got some back-log of posts that I have been meaning to write!
Growing up I think we all used to watch “Bill Nye, the Science Guy” I still remember the intro song and pretty much sing his name whenever I read it hehe. Well he recently released a video on YouTube explaining what’s happening with Climate Change in an easy simple way.
Watch it and tell me if you don’t also get it now. Man I loved his show, he was the reason I enjoyed science growing up until I got to High School where I started to hate it again.
Blame it on the allergy season, I seem to have a problem breathing the moment I wake up, I’m always stuffy and it just annoys me to the point where I might get a headache from how stuffy I am.
Sometimes in life we need to take a moment just to breathe in and breathe out to calm our anxiety, our nerves, our everything basically. I might be experiencing that sometimes, but then at the same time I just find myself ignoring the problem hopefully until it disappears or goes away. Unfortunately that’s not always the right fix.
Even though I hate Google from coming up with Android or doing whatever it is they are doing, I really wish I was working in one of their buildings. Sometimes just sometimes its fun to have a gym, napping pods, play rooms, etc in your work place in order to blow off some steam and get the creative juices flowing, I think they might even have steam rooms who knows.
It’s at times like these where I just want to drop everything and start running on a treadmill or whatever I just want to pump up that heart of mine but instead I am stuck on this uncomfortable chair in this uncomfortable room.
I’m a bit bored really. Why can’t we finish work at 12pm that’ll be ideal :P Just kidding, if the old me heard this, she would just beat me up.
One month left until VACATION TIME!
I keep trying to write about my life, but due to it being so depressingly boring I find that nothing important is there to write about. I can write about the imaginary world I live in, but then again I forget about it the minute I open this “Add New Post” page and back to writer’s block (I wish).
Pretty soon it’ll be a year since I started working in a government job, or rather a job in one of the ministries out there. To say this is a dream come true is a shocking untruth! I actually have started to hate it and want something better out of it. I hate it because I feel (and yes I might be a bit narcissistic here and thinking too much of myself) I feel that I am way over qualified for everything that I’m doing there.
Some tasks that would take people days to finish I can finish in an hour or two and that’s without even trying too hard to finish it fast, hell its without trying at all. Work is well put and just looks extra perfect and neat.
Bah, I’m just depressed again. I blame it on hormones and shizzle! My brain is fried in a way and I can’t seem to find a way to unfry it. But let’s hope tomorrow is a good day.
Why is it that whenever I pick up a book and start reading and losing myself in this other world I just smile and feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I just feel happy.
Don’t get me started when a hilarious conversation or scene takes place, I would be lying in bed reading or on my favorite chair and all you’d hear is a loud laugh and my usual “Oh no he didn’t!” or she if it called for that but its always the men in the book that crack me up because men are crazy! :P
TV has gotten in the way of reading but I am trying to just ban TV shows for a few hours and spend them with a book maybe that will help me regain that sort of aloof feeling and happy one.
What about you? Do you have certain reading habits? Do you like reading to begin with? I personally try to read historical romances just because I like to get lost in that world. I don’t really need dark, deep fiction, or books that will teach me stuff. I find myself more enjoyable with my favorite genre.
P.S. When I read I imagine myself as living there, dressing as they dress, and interacting as the others do, hell I imagine myself the heroine sometimes if she’s not too whiny!
I have missed writing thoughts and feelings in my blog as a way of venting out emotions and all that jazz, right now most of my friends know about this blog and pretty much I have lost a sort of anonymity I had before so I can never share too much of myself as I did in my earlier years.
I recently started keeping a separate blog as a journal, diary of sorts just to share my deepest thoughts. And ironically I find myself writing more there than I would here. Could it be that all this commercialization of blogging made me lose my voice?
I seem to also be a bit more active on Instagram with my TV Impression posts than I am here, would reposting them here make a difference? Would others wish to read them instead of going onto my Instagram account. I don’t know, I don’t know who I am anymore, I am Jacqui but not fully Jacqui maybe I have a new personality or persona emerging from all this.
I started out as “Jackie” a kind sweet natured girl and later on I discovered I had an evil naughty fun side which morphed into “Jacqui” now I guess I am a boring version of myself?
It’s official, my favorite month out of the entire year is here and it’s not just because I was born in December (*ehem*December 4*ehem*) but it’s just a magical time and I feel all warm and fuzzy. The air smells fresher, the gust of the cold wind makes me feel alive and awesome. Everything just is amazing when its December. Here is hoping nothing sours that up.
Things took a bad turn last week when I fell sick and visited the doctor to get a check up unfortunately the pests that I had surgery to remove from my body have decided to come back and rent a penthouse suite, fortunately though surgery is not insanely required right now therefore I could manage but I need to have monthly checkups to monitor their growth and make sure they don’t swell into large grapefruits like last time (then I would actually need surgery again). But one thing lifted up my spirits today, something I’ve been hoping to get and do might finally be in the works and things might be moving forward. Hopefully *fingers crossed* by this January I come back from my vacation and to an insanely better place!
Oh did I forget to tell you all? Well I’m planning on a Winter vacation! I am actually fulfilling a long-wished dream of mine where I get to spend Christmas and New Years in New York City! I JUST CAN’T FREAKING WAIT! This time I’m taking the little monster, my younger sister (read: baby sister) Lujain with me! And I’ll just go crazy!
I’m filled with a bit of love, scratch that I’m filled with lots of love for friends and family not to mention some of you faceless (not that you don’t have any faces) strangers who actually take the time and read my ramblings. So, HUGS AND KISSES TO YOU ALL! (platonically of course!) In the meantime, I will share some of my paranoia with you guys and give you a sneak peak into one of my Wish Lists for my Birthday. Wait no I think it deserves a whole post for itself right? Yes right! I will put it up tomorrow as soon as I have my breakfast at work (yeah government jobs make you fat :P).
I bid thee all a good night!