This couch has seen better days, it’s been neglected by a bad Jacqui and now the good Jacqui has come out to save its bum. She has lots of stories and tales from all around the world to share and therefore she must do them as soon as the star lineup is correct. Have you ever felt like that? Felt that you just couldn’t do something simply because it’s too much of a chore or it requires too many steps to get one thing done?
I’ve always procrastinated, the reason I did ‘good’ in college and not ‘great’ or ‘excellent’ was because I didn’t apply myself I didn’t push myself to the edge and that’s how I’ve been living these past few years. I start off with wanting to write about my day, my experience, my new toy and then I get distracted by watching a video, TV show, reading other blogs, and so much more. Then that urge to write simply disappears.
The thing I miss the most about old-school blogging happens to be the sharing aspect of my day, my life, my existence. Back in the day I would write up a post about what I did that day even if it was as boring as going into work dealing with crazy customers and heading back home pooped and exhausted! Now it seems that everything has to be about an event I attended and my recommendations and such. I think I should bring back that old fashioned style of sharing my day, hey if it’s not sharing it with you, it’s at least sharing it with myself. I sometimes look back at my older posts and laugh at what I wrote about that day, the things that worried me back then versus the things that worry me now and so forth.
Anyways, this post really started out as a place-holder, you know telling you I’m going to do something and there is a 50/50 chance I might actually finally do it. But this time I really do hope I would do it. Seriously, Jacqui you have to stop being lazy and actually do it! Yalla chop chop go work!
I have officially become the person who would walk by a living room that has a TV turned on and turn it off since the people who were in the room are either not in it anymore or fast asleep on the couch. I never thought I would be that person, one who would berate others (i.e.
Are you that person, have you started to truly feel the value of the gift of electricity which the famous Thomas Edison gave us back in the day? Do you walk around turning off lights, turning off TVs, turning everything off when no one is in the room, and sometimes when they are sitting right there just to prank them into thinking that the electricity just busted out a fuse?
I know I am that person.
If you ever needed proof that the Green-Eyed Monster exists then just turn to the left or right of your shoulder and you will be able to spot one sitting there just staring and trying to kill you with their daggar-like stares. The Green-Eyed Monster in this story happens to be the person who is simply jealous from what you own, who you are, and what you can be. I have fought long and hard with myself before attempting to write this post but thought that enough is enough. I am seeing this monster surface its head quite frequently and I always seem to be without my sword to chop its head off.
There is a saying I remember hearing in one of this seasons episodes of “Suits” by Jessica Pearson which states:
It is so much easier to criticize someone else than it is to acknowledge your own shortcomings.
Everyone around me has deemed it the perfect time to put on their critic hat and criticize everyone and anyone simply because that person does not adhere to their own mold of what a person should or shouldn’t be. I am seeing blogs appearing to criticize others on different subjects, while there are some subjects worth criticizing there are some that should not be put on the chopping block simply because “it is none of your business.” Any topic that borders on a person’s livelihood or income should not come into discussion simply because you will never have the full facts not to mention it is simply none of your business of how much this person makes doing whatever they do. You know how they tell you “never tell a friend/family member how much you make at your job” well it’s there for a reason. Each and every person has a different skill set, educational qualifications, you come from a different background, your negotiating skills are different so a company would not necessarily pay you the same as any other person just because they have to give everyone an equal amount of cash. What each person should say is “Thank God” or “El Hemdellah” for this gift from God because this is what is allowing you to survive and continue living.
I do not see people thanking God for anything anymore, all I hear is “Oh my God, this person is getting paid to do nothing” and “This person thinks they’re the shit because they studied at XYZ” and “Yeah this person is saying this because he/she has a hidden agenda” not to mention “Oh of course they are all in cahoots together, it’s because they are of the same nationality/mindset”. When will we all grow up and start seeing people as individuals and treat them with respect rather than being prejudice and racist to a certain nationality, religion, gender, sexual orientation, and the what not.
It’s truly shameful that we are sitting there counting the eggs of others not knowing that the person might not end up with 10 fully hatched eggs. Not knowing that a person might be in dire need of those eggs, or simply not even knowing that by the amount of hours we spend criticizing, judging, talking about others that we are losing bits and pieces of ourselves, our sanity, and so much more.
I might have not made any sense here but I kind of understand what I am getting at in my head. If I understand it then anyone can, and probably should. Don’t look at your friend, sibling, parent and think “Why don’t I have that?” “Why can’t I make that amount of cash?” “Why can’t I get the latest gadget/bag/dress?” instead say “Thank God for what I have and my good health” and think of a way to get what you want without eyeing what others have. If you saved your cash you would be able to get whatever you want, if you managed your time you could study whatever you want and so much more.
We are all guilty of this, I am guilty myself but I am learning to be grateful because the moment you are grateful God will reward you with so much more. In the words of Rissa S. Kawpeng:
Instead of focusing on what others have that I don’t, I thank God for what I do have. And before I know it, I forget what I’m envious about because I’m drowning in a sea of blessings.
And remember constructive criticism can help a person but only if it is delivered respectably supported with proof; name calling and being rude doesn’t help with sending the message that you want to send.
I sorely miss my creative writing days, if you search the “Creative” category on this blog you will see some short stories I wrote a long time ago. I have a story in mind and I have already written the introduction to it, but I sorely need a new name to call it. I am hoping to launch this bad girl later on today I am just in the final stages of choosing a name for the series and whatnot.
Are you excited? Would you love to read a nice short story here? Of course once it starts it will be a weekly thing, I will give you a glimpse into the lives of the characters every week and bring you a new “adventure” per say. I for one am excited, what about you?
So until we meet again this evening, I bid thee adieu!
Sometimes the only reason I take so long in posting about the different events I get invited to is the fact that I have to come home sift through close to 50+ photos picking out my favorites, open up Photoshop and editing them to better suit this blog. Because that process is lengthy sometimes I just feel too exhausted and so I put it off until a lot of time goes by.
I am trying to amend that problem by editing photos as soon as I come home and uploading everything, seriously I’ve got things I wanted to write about that took place in February and I haven’t done anything about them!
So really it’s not me hating the event or not wanting to write about it or the likes of that but it’s merely the lengthiness of photo editing that makes the process all seem too tedious. I seriously need to come up with an automated script in Photoshop that will apply all the effects/watermarks I want by just clicking a button!
So here is hoping I finish a majority of my “Previously” posts this weekend!