It is no surprise that I haven’t been tackling my “New Year Resolutions” as well as I have promised myself to, but I always chalk that up to it being the first month of the year and I am in need of a nice vacation time. It is also no surprise that last week on Wednesday January 16th was the last working day for me as an editor at a newspaper. It’s like another chapter in the story of my life has been written and closed (for some reason I feel that sentence needs some work but I’m not yet function-able to edit it so I’ll leave you to fix it my grammar fairies).
It finally hit me today, a mere 5 days after I started my “open-ended vacation” time that I no longer had the jaded view on life I used to have when I was looking for stories to fill my pages. You see back when I used to edit the Entertainment pages I would constantly look for interesting stories to share with the readers, most of which had to deal with Hollywood and the likes of that. One of the most disturbing things I discovered about myself is that when a celebrity would pass away or a dramatic thing would happen to them I would jump with joy simply because I now had a lead story to lead with on my page (one person’s misery is some else’s entertainment). Now that I no longer have to read the entertainment news as a chore or part of my job I stumble across the celebrity death stories and no longer feel a sense of misplaced ‘happiness’ instead I am back to feeling sad for that person and their family because it is a huge loss.
Not everyone becomes as jaded as I have become because of the need to fill the pages but sometimes you reach that extreme. I know I reached it, and I know that there were days I would be ecstatic with the amount of news I can carry on a page simply because of the mishaps and downfalls certain celebrities had dealt with. Will I miss this aspect of my job, of course not! I am now back to being a normal human being (if a normal human being ever existed). But I will miss the power I had at the tips of my hands, the power of telling my readers what was important to read and what wasn’t.
Wait, why should I miss that aspect? I still own it here! I can make you read about anything I want you to! And in the upcoming days I promise to bombard you with insane amounts of posts to read, yes some might be of the advertisable aspect but one does have to squeeze those in there to share with you the happenings going on in Kuwait.
Thanks to my little Nada Faris for kicking my bum and getting me to actually look back at my resolutions. You see I actually wanted to give myself a break until January 10th, since I wanted to churn out 20 posts a month, I thought one a day afterwards would surely meet the quota but now that I’m 12 days late I guess that means I have to pull an all-nighter.
Now that the year is almost ending, I decided to actually drop by and check what’s up, hell there are lots of cobwebs gathering around and I really can’t believe that the last time I was on here was December 6th! I have been a bad girl and Santa should not even consider gifting me that deliciously gorgeous 27″ iMac I’ve been drooling about! But a lot has happened since the end of November.
Before December began, I received the unfortunate news that my job will come to an end in three months, and that meant the love I had when I shared with you the Technology news, Apps of the Week, and Entertainment biznaaaz (yes I deliberately spelled business that way!) will come to an end. Not only that, but since we’re pretty much shutting down, we had already shut down in terms of staff and are now functioning on the bare minimum. It’s a shame really but now that we’re only a handful I have a larger load to deal with and not enough hours in the day to actually sit and write on this beautiful blog. I want to make that time, I really do but I find myself either being asleep or at work, or dealing with the family one way or another. It’s really funny how this turned out.
I am not upset, in fact I am looking at this situation positively because this only means that another adventure awaits me, learning something new, applying myself to it and finding something to make me wake up bright and early every morning just happy to be alive (not that I am not doing that already).
2012 has been a good year and in a few days when I write up my “What’s Happened This Year” post I will unravel all the mysteries and the whatnot (I actually just made a ‘whatever’ gesture with my hands… lifted them up from the keyboard, gestured and now they’re back!) What delights me from day to day is the fact that I actually enjoy writing about my life (or lack thereof) and it’s just interesting being able to do share thoughts and everything with you guys. One of the things I hope to perfect in the upcoming days, weeks, months, years is the ability to transfer my midnight thoughts, my actual posts which I write when I am all tucked in bed, with the lights completely out and put them up here. You have no idea how many times I sat there in bed looking up at the ceiling, composing a post and not wanting to leave the warm confines of my covers to grab that laptop and type it away, because simply turning on the laptop will mean I see some light and become wide awake and poof there goes my sleep.
This week will mark my “come-back” week. Let’s hope I’m not like Britney and that I wouldn’t fail on that come back. I also will apologize but I have a few semi-press releases I wish to share and well I can’t think of another way but going ahead and doing it. So sorry for those of you who aren’t looking for those. I try to spin some around and play with the wording to make it interesting but sometimes a girl has to do what a girl has to do simply!
Anywho, it’s time for me to hit the sack and I shall see you on the morrow with a brand new post and something interesting to share!
This couch has seen better days, it’s been neglected by a bad Jacqui and now the good Jacqui has come out to save its bum. She has lots of stories and tales from all around the world to share and therefore she must do them as soon as the star lineup is correct. Have you ever felt like that? Felt that you just couldn’t do something simply because it’s too much of a chore or it requires too many steps to get one thing done?
I’ve always procrastinated, the reason I did ‘good’ in college and not ‘great’ or ‘excellent’ was because I didn’t apply myself I didn’t push myself to the edge and that’s how I’ve been living these past few years. I start off with wanting to write about my day, my experience, my new toy and then I get distracted by watching a video, TV show, reading other blogs, and so much more. Then that urge to write simply disappears.
The thing I miss the most about old-school blogging happens to be the sharing aspect of my day, my life, my existence. Back in the day I would write up a post about what I did that day even if it was as boring as going into work dealing with crazy customers and heading back home pooped and exhausted! Now it seems that everything has to be about an event I attended and my recommendations and such. I think I should bring back that old fashioned style of sharing my day, hey if it’s not sharing it with you, it’s at least sharing it with myself. I sometimes look back at my older posts and laugh at what I wrote about that day, the things that worried me back then versus the things that worry me now and so forth.
Anyways, this post really started out as a place-holder, you know telling you I’m going to do something and there is a 50/50 chance I might actually finally do it. But this time I really do hope I would do it. Seriously, Jacqui you have to stop being lazy and actually do it! Yalla chop chop go work!
I have officially become the person who would walk by a living room that has a TV turned on and turn it off since the people who were in the room are either not in it anymore or fast asleep on the couch. I never thought I would be that person, one who would berate others (i.e. Lujain) for the fact that they have turned on the TV real loud and have left the room with it still on. Electricity is a precious thing and if anything from the new hit TV series “Revolution” is going to turn into a reality then we might have a limited time with all our electrical gadgets because one day they will all be turned off and we will no longer have a use for our iPhones, iPads, Zunes, iPods, Kindles, Nooks, Blenders, Aston Martins, and so much more. Really think about it!
Are you that person, have you started to truly feel the value of the gift of electricity which the famous Thomas Edison gave us back in the day? Do you walk around turning off lights, turning off TVs, turning everything off when no one is in the room, and sometimes when they are sitting right there just to prank them into thinking that the electricity just busted out a fuse?
I know I am that person.
If you ever needed proof that the Green-Eyed Monster exists then just turn to the left or right of your shoulder and you will be able to spot one sitting there just staring and trying to kill you with their daggar-like stares. The Green-Eyed Monster in this story happens to be the person who is simply jealous from what you own, who you are, and what you can be. I have fought long and hard with myself before attempting to write this post but thought that enough is enough. I am seeing this monster surface its head quite frequently and I always seem to be without my sword to chop its head off.
There is a saying I remember hearing in one of this seasons episodes of “Suits” by Jessica Pearson which states:
It is so much easier to criticize someone else than it is to acknowledge your own shortcomings.
Everyone around me has deemed it the perfect time to put on their critic hat and criticize everyone and anyone simply because that person does not adhere to their own mold of what a person should or shouldn’t be. I am seeing blogs appearing to criticize others on different subjects, while there are some subjects worth criticizing there are some that should not be put on the chopping block simply because “it is none of your business.” Any topic that borders on a person’s livelihood or income should not come into discussion simply because you will never have the full facts not to mention it is simply none of your business of how much this person makes doing whatever they do. You know how they tell you “never tell a friend/family member how much you make at your job” well it’s there for a reason. Each and every person has a different skill set, educational qualifications, you come from a different background, your negotiating skills are different so a company would not necessarily pay you the same as any other person just because they have to give everyone an equal amount of cash. What each person should say is “Thank God” or “El Hemdellah” for this gift from God because this is what is allowing you to survive and continue living.
I do not see people thanking God for anything anymore, all I hear is “Oh my God, this person is getting paid to do nothing” and “This person thinks they’re the shit because they studied at XYZ” and “Yeah this person is saying this because he/she has a hidden agenda” not to mention “Oh of course they are all in cahoots together, it’s because they are of the same nationality/mindset”. When will we all grow up and start seeing people as individuals and treat them with respect rather than being prejudice and racist to a certain nationality, religion, gender, sexual orientation, and the what not.
It’s truly shameful that we are sitting there counting the eggs of others not knowing that the person might not end up with 10 fully hatched eggs. Not knowing that a person might be in dire need of those eggs, or simply not even knowing that by the amount of hours we spend criticizing, judging, talking about others that we are losing bits and pieces of ourselves, our sanity, and so much more.
I might have not made any sense here but I kind of understand what I am getting at in my head. If I understand it then anyone can, and probably should. Don’t look at your friend, sibling, parent and think “Why don’t I have that?” “Why can’t I make that amount of cash?” “Why can’t I get the latest gadget/bag/dress?” instead say “Thank God for what I have and my good health” and think of a way to get what you want without eyeing what others have. If you saved your cash you would be able to get whatever you want, if you managed your time you could study whatever you want and so much more.
We are all guilty of this, I am guilty myself but I am learning to be grateful because the moment you are grateful God will reward you with so much more. In the words of Rissa S. Kawpeng:
Instead of focusing on what others have that I don’t, I thank God for what I do have. And before I know it, I forget what I’m envious about because I’m drowning in a sea of blessings.
And remember constructive criticism can help a person but only if it is delivered respectably supported with proof; name calling and being rude doesn’t help with sending the message that you want to send.