I feel as if I can’t breathe as if I’m suffocating from something and I don’t know what it is.
But I also feel as if I am doing something good finally.
But then I also feel as if I am still lost and I don’t know what I want from life itself.
It’s a great feeling when all it takes to get to work is 8 minutes! And yet it’s not that great because you laze off in the mornings. I mean I now wake up at 6:10 whereas I used to wake up 5:45 but I am fine thanks for asking.
Weekend where are you? I need to sleep! Yesterday a friend of mine in the Training Session came and visited me at the branch during the evening shift after I told him that I don’t want you to visit because I’m too shy LOL! And yet a few minutes later I see him in front of me, it was sweet but funny at the same time hehe :P I really enjoy having those few friends that I talk to every morning and afternoon, it’s fun to have someone that you know is going through the same things exactly in terms of feelings and such about work.
I miss you (She), and the rest of the gang of course! And I miss my college friends too! I wanna go to Italy, I want time to fly and I want lots of more things but most importantly I want the NOKIA N76 TO BE RELEASED AND SOON MY PALMS ARE ITCHING ME TO SPEND!
First real day as a teller has passed by. It was quite weird and freaky in its own different ways. I messed up once by giving a customer an extra 20 but he realised that I was a brand new employee and counted them to make sure he got the right amount and discovered it and returned it back. That was basically my only mistake. Otherwise it was a good day. The branch itself is small and there are only a few other employees with me. They are nice for now and decent and I will work on maintaining this level of relationship with all of them, no personal and friendships going to be rising out of this place.
I then went to the Main Branch to finish two more orientation sessions about two different departments and I got to see my old buddies and boy was it different meeting them without seeing them for such a long time if you get what I’m saying. I missed them but I can still function good with or without them, had I been allocated with one of my favorites it would’ve been much more fun.
In short, Day 1 as a Teller in Training is quite not bad. (By the way, I wasn’t hired as such).
Real World will begin in a few hours for me, I will no longer be taking actual classes but on Job training. I will no longer have tests or exams to study for but I will have to implement many of the things that I have learned these past few months. Those few hours will change my entire life. I can’t wait yet I don’t want it to happen so soon. I want to stay as young as possible and with no sort of obligations to life. But that can’t happen.
I will miss my friends but I will make things work. Real World, don’t crush me, I know you want to!
Play-time is over.
I hate saying Goodbyes, and I hate even more the fact that I get overly emotional when I do that. I doubt that you ever expected to see me cry this easily but I did yesterday evening (Wednesday). Because that was the last day I would be with the entire group of the new employees in the training program, starting Sunday we would be separated and each would go to a different branch for a period of 4 weeks of training. Around 10 people are the ones that I will miss the most out of the entire group, and I can’t imagine my day without seeing them in the morning and joking around for a bit. Although everyone percieved me as the “serious formal one” I still had an individual story with separate individuals where only a selected few got to see a glimpse of the real me.
Tuesday & Wednesday were our Sales Day Exhibition in which we were to show off our selling skills and try to make some profits for “Children with Cancer”. Our goal is to arrange a day of entertainment and fun for those young children to make them forget all the pain and agony the go through with the various treatments for this disease. It is a small way of helping those young children and hopefully for spreading awareness. All groups presented nice products and nice selling skills and the profit raised + donations are quite nice. (I am still accepting donations until Saturday afternoon where I would stop accepting any because I will have to present it to the Head of the Bank itself to see the preparations that we will take and do for this day to happen). But anyways, it was quite a few days, I got closer to a few and I began to forgive a lot of others.
One thing that happened on Wednesday as well was that a few selected students were given “Hero Awards” and well needless to say I was one of them. As well as 4 of the closest people to my heart. It was an amazing way to end our short time together. But that wasn’t the shock of the day itself, the biggest shock was that I found out that I knew a person in the training program better and she knew me better than I ever expected, so that was quite a shock hehe :P (Hi there ;P)
I won’t go on about today but I’ll leave that to another post. All I wanted to portray in this post is that I hate saying Goodbyes and I am going to miss everyone of those close friends that I made but then again we’ve got MSN and Mobiles and Saturdays Off so who knows we might end up meeting and seeing each other soon.
The time has come the walrus said, to wish our little friend a happy happy joy joy birthday!
Happy Birthday Tooomz! It seems as the years go by you gain more expertise in your fashion sense! Just look at your Birthday suit!
Anywho for the next few days, 3 to be exact I will not be available online due to the Sales Exhibition or Our Final Project in our Training Course, I hope we do a great job and succeed in raising enough money for Children with Cancer. So this is Good Bye for the next few days!
Someone’s birthday is coming up, last year she led me to create a major scandal on this blog, I hope this year will bring back those old memories, don’t you? :P If you know who I am talking about.
The training course is almost over, Thursday I get assigned to a new location to start another 100 days of training and continue doing what I do best, which is stand in the background until I gain my seat and can work, but of course standing in the background while learning stuff. I need that change of atmosphere but I hope I don’t get stuck with any of the lame-o’s that are with me at work now. It appears to be that first impressions can be cheating or more like wrong, but other first impressions can also be correct. I made a few friends or semi-friends if you want to think of it that way.
Anyhow, Friday was my Shopping Therapy day, and I finally started getting the feeling of spending alot of money and not feeling where it went because in the past 3 days I spent like a ton of my salary and that is like sad :( But I did get a few nice things and I am happy about that. I also spent the afternoon at Grandma’s and I had more fun there, sitting in the Garden, it’s truly Eden to me and I am loving it!
Mother got me a present today, well I think it can be called that way, she hooked me up with the new iPod Video 80GB so that she can take my old 60GB one. I want to keep this one scratch-free! I will not keep my baby naked! Oh yeah and I umm named him “Mephistopheles.” I am loving it, it now matches its younger brother “Satan” my Black iPod Nano (1st Generation).