Blekh

March 27, 2007  |  Uncategorized

I can’t wait until this weekend, or our mini-vacation, our three day weekend, wait lemme count, yeah it’s three days.  God I hate math I don’t know why I got into this job or business or hell this thing! I should’ve been a writer or something like that, but since I am a lazy bum and that wouldn’t motivate me much I had to get into something that would force me to wear suits and get off of my bum and do work right?  Oh well.

Life is pretty neutral lately, I am finding a different me.  I hate how the old me is gone already but I think I should let go of that.  Old me can’t stay with the New Me because that would mean I didn’t adapt or change much.  Work is going fine, I am learning stuff but I should break out of my shell.  I am still shy and I need to assert myself more.  I should take this break to learn more about things and be more sure of myself so I can answer people correctly.

Grams got her phone lines working I guess pretty soon the Internet will be functioning there.  I am thinking of going over tomorrow night or the day after and sleeping over.  I miss those old days.  Wait I should grab my old bedroom with me so that I put in the room that I’m supposed to share with my sisters.  It would be like going to the Chalet since it’s a different atmosphere there.  Plus, Uncle just got “300” the Director’s Cut.  Which is great.

This is getting long enough I should go, and write more later.  I should pace my writings also.  Oh well.  I love you all! :*

Janine is writing…

March 25, 2007  |  Uncategorized

Those of you who are on my MSN get to see my weird moods and the weird names I come up with, of course they all have to start with J.  I mean I went from Janet, to Janine, to Janice, to Jenna, and more.  It’s crazy hehe I have more than one personality for the things I do, like sleep, work, or rest.

I went to the Avenues Mall yesterday with my Aunt and cousin, it looked great I love how spacious it feels and that you get to see sunshine I just hope it stays clean that way forever, but I got confused about the fact that a store like H&M has two floors and also has another section outside of the big one there, it was quite confusing.

Things are never what they seem and that is something you always get to learn the hard way or the easy way depending on who you are.  Just make sure you don’t get tricked into believing things.

Grandma’s place is fun and nice, they seem to be heading out to the beach every Thursday, they being the kids and I like sitting there sometimes I just have to remember to stuff some normal clothes in my bag so that I change into them when I get to Grams from work.  I also want to participate in a barbeque soon, I need some Shrimps!

My turtles are still alive, I see them but I don’t care for them as much as I did before, I don’t have much time.

I miss my friends, well I’m keeping only a few of those who I work with but I miss my real friends alot, but not Swair, I hate Swair.  I miss ananyah the most :P

I am dying for the N76, so COME ON ALREADY GET RELEASED! I am dying to buy a new phone, hell I thought of getting the E50 just to pass the time since I am really really sick of my N90 right now, it’s just too huge for me now, after almost two years of usage!  That’s a record by the way because that is the longest I went without changing my phone since they began releasing Series 60 phones.

I want to be spoiled, someone spoil me.  But right now I want to sleep.  I miss my blogger friends! Leave me comments I’ll get back to you I promise!

Can’t Breathe

March 23, 2007  |  Uncategorized

I feel as if I can’t breathe as if I’m suffocating from something and I don’t know what it is.

But I also feel as if I am doing something good finally.

But then I also feel as if I am still lost and I don’t know what I want from life itself.

*help

Great Feeling

March 20, 2007  |  Uncategorized

It’s a great feeling when all it takes to get to work is 8 minutes! And yet it’s not that great because you laze off in the mornings.  I mean I now wake up at 6:10 whereas I used to wake up 5:45 but I am fine thanks for asking.

Weekend where are you?  I need to sleep!  Yesterday a friend of mine in the Training Session came and visited me at the branch during the evening shift after I told him that I don’t want you to visit because I’m too shy LOL! And yet a few minutes later I see him in front of me, it was sweet but funny at the same time hehe :P I really enjoy having those few friends that I talk to every morning and afternoon, it’s fun to have someone that you know is going through the same things exactly in terms of feelings and such about work.

I miss you (She), and the rest of the gang of course! And I miss my college friends too! I wanna go to Italy, I want time to fly and I want lots of more things but most importantly I want the NOKIA N76 TO BE RELEASED AND SOON MY PALMS ARE ITCHING ME TO SPEND!

First Real Day

March 19, 2007  |  Uncategorized

First real day as a teller has passed by.  It was quite weird and freaky in its own different ways.  I messed up once by giving a customer an extra 20 but he realised that I was a brand new employee and counted them to make sure he got the right amount and discovered it and returned it back.  That was basically my only mistake.  Otherwise it was a good day.  The branch itself is small and there are only a few other employees with me.  They are nice for now and decent and I will work on maintaining this level of relationship with all of them, no personal and friendships going to be rising out of this place.

I then went to the Main Branch to finish two more orientation sessions about two different departments and I got to see my old buddies and boy was it different meeting them without seeing them for such a long time if you get what I’m saying.  I missed them but I can still function good with or without them, had I been allocated with one of my favorites it would’ve been much more fun.

In short, Day 1 as a Teller in Training is quite not bad.  (By the way, I wasn’t hired as such).

Real World Kuwait!

March 17, 2007  |  Uncategorized

Real World will begin in a few hours for me, I will no longer be taking actual classes but on Job training.  I will no longer have tests or exams to study for but I will have to implement many of the things that I have learned these past few months.  Those few hours will change my entire life.  I can’t wait yet I don’t want it to happen so soon.  I want to stay as young as possible and with no sort of obligations to life.  But that can’t happen.

I will miss my friends but I will make things work.  Real World, don’t crush me, I know you want to!

Play-time is over.

Hate Saying Good-Byes

March 16, 2007  |  Uncategorized

I hate saying Goodbyes, and I hate even more the fact that I get overly emotional when I do that.  I doubt that you ever expected to see me cry this easily but I did yesterday evening (Wednesday).  Because that was the last day I would be with the entire group of the new employees in the training program, starting Sunday we would be separated and each would go to a different branch for a period of 4 weeks of training.  Around 10 people are the ones that I will miss the most out of the entire group, and I can’t imagine my day without seeing them in the morning and joking around for a bit.  Although everyone percieved me as the “serious formal one” I still had an individual story with separate individuals where only a selected few got to see a glimpse of the real me.

Tuesday & Wednesday were our Sales Day Exhibition in which we were to show off our selling skills and try to make some profits for “Children with Cancer”.  Our goal is to arrange a day of entertainment and fun for those young children to make them forget all the pain and agony the go through with the various treatments for this disease.  It is a small way of helping those young children and hopefully for spreading awareness.  All groups presented nice products and nice selling skills and the profit raised + donations are quite nice.  (I am still accepting donations until Saturday afternoon where I would stop accepting any because I will have to present it to the Head of the Bank itself to see the preparations that we will take and do for this day to happen).  But anyways, it was quite a few days, I got closer to a few and I began to forgive a lot of others.

One thing that happened on Wednesday as well was that a few selected students were given “Hero Awards” and well needless to say I was one of them.  As well as 4 of the closest people to my heart.  It was an amazing way to end our short time together.  But that wasn’t the shock of the day itself, the biggest shock was that I found out that I knew a person in the training program better and she knew me better than I ever expected, so that was quite a shock hehe :P  (Hi there ;P)

I won’t go on about today but I’ll leave that to another post.  All I wanted to portray in this post is that I hate saying Goodbyes and I am going to miss everyone of those close friends that I made but then again we’ve got MSN and Mobiles and Saturdays Off so who knows we might end up meeting and seeing each other soon.