Depression Hurts

November 20, 2008  |  Deep Thoughts, My Life

Depression hurts sometimes, and wanting things that you can’t have actually hurt even more.

I haven’t updated in a while not because I’m lazy it’s just that I don’t feel like writing anymore because I am so sick of everything, work is so hectic it’s not even funny.

I have worked all jobs at the branch this year except a branch manager’s position, and let me tell you it’s not that great nor even funny.

I am missing my friends, or the friends I used to have back in college, and the later years, hell I miss the twirlies, and it’s not even fair.  I don’t have time to talk to anyone. I am working 12 hour shifts basically rather than going home in my break I stay at the branch and finish my work.  And when I do get home, I just sit and read blogs and watch my TV Shows as they help me unwind.  I want to start reading again but I just can’t anymore.

My hair is falling like crazy.  I guess it’s all the stress.

I am sleep deprived.

I am emotionally deprived.

I need a huge bear hug.

I think I want a shoulder to cry on, not for anything major I just need to let it all out.

Hell my little Macbook purchase is not doing it’s usual pick-me-up-cheer-up that it usually does.  Granted it’s still not in my hands but I am not entirely that excited anymore than when I ordered it.

I need a break.

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I am a Kuwaiti Apple and gadget girl freak, who gets bored of her blog layouts so much that I change them like I crazy. Currently I work in a newspaper and if you don't see me around I'm being sucked into my job reviewing TV Shows and APPS! This is my space where I vent and release everything, welcome to it.


  1. Hey! I hope you feel better. Do we need to have that talk again?!

    Shoot me an email if you wanna talk :)

  2. Obviously you hate your job but ! you need it , right ? :I

    and thats why I dont like to do any Gov or Corp Jobs :)

  3. you need a ‘huge bear’ to hug you? or bear-like person to hug you? :p

    take a vacation, relaxe, and enjoy life, because it’s too short to miss it..

  4. you’re probably anemic, go get a blood test done. I don’t think it’s stress alone that’s making your hair fall out

  5. things eventually get better, trust me :)

  6. Life is not worth doing this to yourself, life goes on, just put the past where it belongs and move on.

  7. your teddy bear still alive?
    that huge one who i always wanted to steal?
    ask it for a hug? its a bear!
    what do bears say? baa? moo? bamo?
    loool i love you depression girl looove


  8. sweet heart what you need is a job that doesnt suck the living life out of you

  9. I hope things work out for you. Take care of your health. hugs

  10. I’m so sorry! I wish you could find a job somewhere else where you can really be relaxed and happy rather then where you are now! This sucks completely! Nothing left before you can make a choice of where to move to!

  11. Eschew Obfuscation : Hey I hope so too hehe and I will make sure to do that when I need to talk. Thanks for the thought…

    PhDork ! : Yes that’s why I do private company jobs, because I need it at the moment and can’t survive that well without it.

    neoark25 : I think a huge bear can apply here too.. Hehehe thanks for the sweet thoughts sweets :) And I can’t take a vacation I exhausted my days this year.

    pearls : Seriously?

    Laialy_q8 : I do hope so walla….

    G-Funk : The past is there but it’s the future and present that worry me… and make me this way.

    your battlefield : Yes the bear is still there, but I think buried under alot of stuff, I want to reorganize my room really. LOL! You wanted to steal Jack the bear! It was a special bday gift though! Hehehe and no bears say Grrrrrrr LOL! Remember Jack and Karen when they were being mean to Leo!

    eshda3wa : Exactly do you know where I can get any of those?

    Shaymaa : Thanks alot sweetheart, and I should.. nothing is worth it anymore.

    Marzouq : I wish so too, and I wish the same for you too hehehe yalla hanaat though